Thanks for the feedback and support, everybody. Agree that sleeping two hours in the car was pathetic. I think it was an emotional reaction to the trip she took earlier in the week to see her lover. Still stinging a bit from that. She has no idea how close I came to throwing all of her clothes on the front lawn & telling the neighbors.
I know that she will (at some point) ask where I was that night. She is wondering, I am sure of it. When the time comes that I feel comfortable sharing, I will tell her that I went to the festival to play poker, had too much to drink, and slept in my car (all truthful statements).
Yes husband, I am confident that she does care how I will handle the divorce. But she says it's only because she does not want me to hate her in the future. Yes, I realize that she now treats me with absolute the contempt and disrespect, so her efforts are in vain. And I agree that she is telling me (and her lover) that she wants me to take being served well (wants me to be "emotionally ready" for the D), yet in fact she is scared to death of being on her own. I am convinced of this. She is actually hiding behind this. Yet, funny thing, I am the only one who can see that she is scared and hiding. "Mr. Wonderful" (her lover and dream man) cannot see it. Unbelievable.
One more thing. I think she is gonna pull it with me. She is going to tell me she is going out, and not tell me where she is going or when she will be home (yeah, I know it's immature, but it's her style). I will just act like I really don't care. I am prepared for this because, since I started DBing (about 8 weeks ago), I have not ever asked her where she has been, what she did, who she was with, etc. And she has not noticed this...
