It's going to be a bumpy ride

[Trixi]

More to add-
heh- turning him down is such a nice theory. So hard to put into practice at this point.

Early this evening he announced that he was going to take a nap.
One thing leads to another; super booty call. At one point he says "well, we have a great sex life, that's for sure. That's definitely not one of our problems."

fast forward-
I make a quick micro-meal (it's like 8:30pm-very late to be eating) and we sit down and eat. After dinner he says "Well, I think i'm gonna go out for a bit." And I look at him and say "So I'm good enough to f*ck, but not good enough to take out."
Him-(with a funny look)"Okay."
Me-"what "okay"?"
Him-"I see how you are"
Me-"how am i?"
Him-"This is such a weird situation. I mean, we're separating but since we still live together...."
Him-"sex confuses everything. Aren't you confused?"
Me-"yeah, only because in my mind I say "wow, we have a fantastic sex life, we're best friends...seems like we have a lot to work with-way more than most people""
Him-"Yeah, we'll see if that holds true"
Him-"I just *have* to do this. I have already started down this path."
I gave him a face of "you HAVE to do this?"
Him-"I could not go and things would be happy, peachy keen for awhile, but then I think I would end up unhappy again. The only way I will know for sure is to do this."

The good news is that since he was out so late last night and I made sure he was 'satisfied' twice today, he will probably be too tired to get into trouble. He is 44 after all, not 24.

Am I crazy to be hopeful?

Edited to add: (My emotions turn on a dime...) WhyTF is he going out? What does he think he is going to find out there? It seems to me he isn't trying to be the least bit introspective; all he is doing is going out drinking all the time. Grrrr..