Not much has changed in the last week. The W has still been looking for apartments even though she doesn't have a full time job and her credit is messed up. It is disappointing that she wants to be away form me that badly. She has set up new profiles on dating sites. I try not to pay attention to it, but it's right in my face. Then she asks me to do things for her. Of course I do them, as I am trying to keep the peace.
She is in a rough place right now. She does not want to be here any longer and does not have the means to leave. She is becoming resentful towards me. I guess I am to blame for her not being able to leave. I wish she would see that it would be better for her to want to be here and work it out.
I continue to work on myself. I am GAL. When I am getting ready to go somewhere, she is concerned about where I am going. The other day after I came home from working out and took a shower she asked why I was taking a shower. Where had I been? I didn't understand why she was asking, but I told her I was working out. She said okay, i thought you were doing something else. I no longer have anything to hide anymore. Open and honest is it from this point on. I know it is too late now, but I am starting for the next phase of my life with the being open.
So, that's where I am now. I am not in a good place, but I am alright. I am not depressed. Which is good for me. Could be the working out. I hope it continues. Maybe it helps that I have been down this road before.
