It's going to be a bumpy ride

[Trixi]

Wow- my first ever thread lock. Cool
Link to the old thread:
Buy a house, what about sex?

He warmed up a little. But still insists that he MUST go and get an apartment.

Went to the bar last night that *we* used to go to, and now I have been there enough without him that people have figured it out. Had one guy hitting on me, and another guy running interference because the first guy isn't up to par with me.
It didn't really matter,it's not like I can't take care of myself- but I thought it was sweet of him to care. He really wants me and J to get back together because he "loves us both".

J came home late (3am) and I had gotten home shortly before that so I was up and about. He was VERY curious as to why I was getting home so late. I was vague. He told me where he was.

I am still silly enough that there was a booty call. He said he loved me. (I took it for what it was: he does love me...BUT.) I didn't answer back except to say "I know."

I think I need to find a place that gives free salsa lessons. And I have already made some plans in my head as to how I will re-arrange the bedroom.

I love my H and REALLY want it to work out, but I feel like a toy from Hasbro- a push me/pull me toy. Yes, it is partially by my choice--I am taking the crumbs instead of demanding the cake.

I hope to develop my self enough to feel that I have the leverage/collateral/confidence to demand the cake at a later date. Demanding it now would have little impact.