don't know if affair still going on

[NeedSomePatience]

Dawn, it is going to take all of the strength inside of you to not think about this situation constantly, but you have to do it. We have all been in that boat, constantly thinking about your sitch will drive you crazy. You will have great days where you tell yourself that you can detach and you will be alright. But then the thoughts creep back in. Stay positive, and when you fell like calling your H and begging or just talking, come on this board. Vent to us. Let him come to you, don't pursue him. It seems like that is the wrong thing to do, but if there is hope then H will reach out to you. All you can do is control how you react to this, so work on yourself. I know this is difficult since you have not had your H out of your life for so many years. You can do it. Read many of the successful sitches on this board and that can give some positive thoughts, which we all need. I know I kind of rambled on, hope it helps.