I've been so detached and distant from H and even a little cold, I guess. I'm trying to decide if I should make more of an effort to be closer to him. I'm scared and don't want to be hurt again.
Seems to me that what you have been doing is successful for you. Look, you see OW's sister and then you let your mind start to spin. You are starting to question yourself. Your plan for moving forward is so solid. Stick with it. Seems to me that you are available when necessary. It seems like you are civil in your interactions with your H. Stop thinking.
bam, what I am saying is the way you have been going about things has been impressive. He should be begging to be with you. Your actions speak so much louder than anything you could say or do.
