don't know if affair still going on

[RedHeadWife]

Well, I guess I didn't tell the end of my story. H left and now realizes how much he truly does love me & the boys. He constantly tells me how much he misses me, etc. I am going over there late August to visit & then he gets to come home for a month in December. He comes home for good in May. I know the time will fly, but sometimes it's hard. Ok, very hard, but I'm surviving.

I actually had the "chance" to have an A just recently. That had never happened before, but I realized that I had worked my A$$ off to save my M, I surely wasn't going to do anything now to mess it up. I have no desire to "get back" at H for his A's. It did make me feel good to realize that other men find me attractive. I guess I hadn't seen or felt that way and then w/ what happened w/ the D sitch, my confidence was really low. It's hard, after years of M, not to see your H as "just your H," but the effort to keep things "alive" and "exciting" is worth it. I never realized how much effort it really does take to keep the M/R alive, especially after kids, but it takes work, along w/ everything else in your life. But, it's well worth it! I'm much happier now too.