Aud, I know how you feel. I still have not gained my trust back, after more than 2 years in piecing. I hope it'll come back quicker for you, but it all depends on our H's commitment and actions. I am also at a low point right now, for some reason. Not sure how to proceed, but will take a bit of time to think.
Maybe we should just get out of the house, and do something, 'eh!? Well, me anyway.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim