Thank you for responding and thanks for your concern. I wish I could just have the desire to sit next to my H on the couch and watch a movie or something. I am afraid to touch him for fear that his hopes will sky rockett. It just doesn't take much for him to think everything is "fixed" and it is far from being fixed.
This afternoon has been really bad for me. I got some very distrubing news and I am feeling so weak in my resolve not to contact the OM. I know that is the last thing I need to do, but my emotions are calling out to him so strongly.
I just need anyone's help right now. I thought last night was hard to get through, but I think tonight will be tougher.
"But if you will not obey the voice of the Lord your God, being watchful to do all His commandments and His statutes which I command you this day, then all these curses shall come upon you and overtake you:
...Your sons and daughters shall be given to another people, and your eyes shall look and fail with longing for them all the day; and there shall be no power in your hands to prevent it.
You shall beget sons and daughters but shall not enjoy them, for they shall go into captivity.
All these curses shall come upon you and shall pursue you and overtake you till you are destroyed, because you do not obey the voice of the Lord your God, to keep His commandments and His statutes which He commanded you.
They shall be upon you for a sign [as a warning] and for a wonder, and upon your descendants forever."Deuteronomy 28:15, 32, 41, 46, 46
Forever is a long, long time and it encompasses your grandchildren, great-grandchildren and even their grandchildren.
If My people, who are called by My Name, will humble themselves and pray and seek My face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land." 2 Chronicles 7:14
Some would tell you that those scriptures don't apply to you under these circumstances. Oh, yes, maam they most certainly do and unless you want to live out here like I live, like a refugee, you need to get your head on straight. SPEAK THAT WHICH IS NOT AS THOUGH IT WERE. SPEAK WHAT IS RIGHT INTO BEING. It is in line with His Word. Speak it. I'm going to go try to dig up an old post that this has reminded me of...
** I just did a search and the maximum date range is supposedly a year. I searched the term I was looking for for YOU and it came up. I wrote it January 2006. So much for that maximum date range...I'll post it next.
