I've been reading your stitch and you've come a long way in a short time. Good for you.. as for the leg.. sorry about that, you explaining your pain was making mine hurt :(.
I think you are doing everything right. I have to admit, you are a stronger person than I, I don't think I could do what your doing with what you have been through. Although My H didn't cheat.. (posted a naked pic of himself on a adultfinder website) It still hurts, Im not comparing at all...
You sound like a great father, and I think that's Awesome!! I love my two little munchkins to death (2 boys, one is 4, the other is 20 months) and would do anything for them, as would you!
All you guys are making me jealous with this talk of laying out in the sun... can I join??
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Come join the pity party, you have to bring your own towel though. I too feel like my sitch is pale compared to others here. When I think back I have come a long way. I have my ups and downs. But I have come to a point that I don't trust my W when she does something nice. 2 months ago I was crying and pleading with her to give me a chance, and now I am UN easy about giving her a chance. Your husband posting pictures is as much of a violation of your trust as my W posing for them with the OM. I hurt just as bad. From all of the reading I have done, I have read over and over that Death is actually easier to deal with than what we are.
Hang in there and join the club. This is a great place to vent. Or just ramble on with your thoughts (which I do allot). You have to let it out somewhere. This is a safe place.
Husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
unfortunately I do the same thing as far as question when he's done something nice... Is it out of guilt?? I think sometimes, actually a lot I was way too young to get married, But I did, and now I just have to work on getting back to where I want to be.
I question myself often, but there are the kids, and I just could never do anything to turn their lives upside down.
Its a vicous cycle...
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
My H is just very self absorbed. and then on the other hand he is insecure, although he would never admit it to me.
Its weird, even though he has done some things to me in the past, I really don't feel ugly inside, like I probably should feel, him wanting to look and contact (maybe) other woman... I guess I just have excepted that he has problems, and I may have contributed to it a little, but I certainly didn't force him to do these things. Im as loyal as they get.
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Thanks for asking after me. Today was my un-anniversary, and I actually had a pretty decent time and didn't think about it much. My children's godparents and I snuck into an apartment pool this evening (how trashy is that?) and sat around drinking red wine and bourbon (separately--not mixed) while the kids swam. I wish my H had been there to hear DD3 say "I love you" 500 times to her godfather. Maybe he's right in thinking he's irreplaceable, with his four hours a month of visitation--and maybe he isn't.
I hope he realizes he needs to be part of their lives before it is too late. And it will be. My D's do not want anything to do with their "birth mom" she never even sent them cards. But what happened was she did not see them for soooo long that she became embarrassed and then how could she see them now. She was a REAL loser, Drugs had 2 more kids out of wed lock, had those kids taken form her by the state. Now she lives on welfare up in Eureka. I never ONCE said anything bad about her. In fact I made up excuses for her when she didn’t show up to pick up the 3 yr old on her days (I had Custody) I have to go home now. Never thought I would rather stay at work than be home. But it’s my night to sleep W son.
See ya later
husband Husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Sounds like you enjoyed your day, so that's what's important. I love sneaking into pools. They are underused anyway. I didn't realize you had such young children. Is she the only one, or do you have others? An un-anniversary, it's so Alice in Wonderland.
