Sandi...you made it two weeks now...you are doing VERY GOOD...I know it isn't easy...I know you sometimes think "what could it hurt to just drop a line to him"...but it would hurt YOU...inside you know that if you did that you would feel aweful...you would feel the raw betrayal to your H who is so loving and kind as to give you a chance...
Someone mentioned taking time to sit with him for maybe 10 minutes...before doing this...sit down and talk to him or email him...whatever it takes...and explain to him what you are trying to accomplish...and that you need his support by not pressuring you and by not thinking that all is fixed...you HAVE to employ him at some point into this...he won't know what to do if you don't tell him...and yes, it might hurt but in the long run when he see's the outcome it will be so much better...and the fact that you were able to get to this point without an actual PA will also be of benefit to you both...
How are things with your D...have you had a chance to talk to her?...she might also be in a position to talk to her dad and help him understand the transition that you are going through and how he needs to be in order for you to heal...
You need to vent...it is appearant that things are happening that make you want to contact the OM...you have us now...you need to come to us and find the comfort...we are safe...he is not safe...
You are doing so good...reward yourself in a little way for your BIG hurdle of 2 weeks!
