I think part of the reason I'm feeling so good is that some of the stress has gone. I no longer feel that I have to watch how I behave or be wary of what I say, no more criticism or control. I was actually pretty wary of seeing her today - I could have happily not done so, because I knew it was likely to push me backwards. But at least I do miss her, and that is good to know.
Agent99, I've done more crying in the past 2 weeks than in the past 10 years. Normally, it's only two tears per eye though! Tonight there were a few more, but I tell myself that was partly because of the plotline for Brothers and Sisters. I'll check out your thread right now, then it's time for bed.
Max
Me 36 W 37 Bomb (Easter 07) Sep (WAW July 07) "It's over" (end Oct 07) T10.5 years, M2 (before bomb)