Moving Forward,......taking baby steps.

[~Sol]

I have thought about this for a while, I know Ian will chime in and say his piece.

I am going dark.

Reasons?
*Too many confrontational arguments over petty stuff

*W likes to badger me and push my buttons

*I let her (need to control myself)

*W still wants to control her H.....ME, and the sitch

*I hate this separation

*I need time alone to reflect and calm down a lot more

*I have too many things going on

*She makes herself at home in the house and still has a trailer to retreat to

*Sex is out the window (but that's a given when she left and stopped going to therapy to work on the M)......I just had to throw this one in there....


I am not going full-blown dark, but dark enough to not deal with her if I don't have to. No more going out, shooting the breeze, nothing. Just "hi" and "bye". I can't even stand to enter to run-down mobile home. She has all kinds of guys over to "help her fix the place up". I see that she is capable of taking care of herself, yet she constantly nick picks at me when there is no need to - again, it comes down to her wanting "control" of me.

Besides, I am still P.O.ed by all of this, and I need a break from her. I am also trynig to figure out if I want to be with her at all. I am finding out that there is too much irreparable damage, and I would be insane to stay with her anyway. I am thinking long and hard.