So i found out last night what my wife was crying about just before she left for her 'weekend with OM'. Apparently she had some sore/cut in her private areas, and went to the doctor to check it out. The doctor said it was genital herpes, and prescribed a bunch of medicine.

Now - last night she gets a call from the doctor, and they say the tested the cultures and have been trying to get a hold of her, and they were wrong, and she is clean.

My wife tells me all this, (which i am grateful for as it shows she can still talk to me), but it confuses me. So the doctor told her that its possible she already had it from before our relationship (9 years of being loyal) but its likely it came from someone new. So She went on vacation with this guy, even though he could have infected her with an incurable STD? I guess she is in a real fog.

Now she knew this, and still went away for the weekend with the guy, because he told her he didn't have it, and had been tested, and even if he did give it to her - he might have not known, as apparently a lot of people are carriers without knowing it. The doctor said (20-25% of the dating community).

Still... I had to finally just tell her i'm really happy she is not sick, and left the room to do something else, I don't exactly like thinking about her having sex with another man. Either way i'm really happy she is clean, as it would have changed the way i feel about reconciliation and keeping my family together.


So last night, she was doing something and talking to a friend, and something she said upset me. I kind of lost my temper slightly. She asked 'whats wrong?' and i said 'NOTHING IS WRONG, WHY WOULD ANYTHING BE WRONG' loudly. She followed me to the office and said it makes her uncomfortable when i do that. I don't do that often, and i told her ' i can understand that, and i will find better ways to handle myself in the future'.

I then asked 'Do you think you might be throwing away something really good?' - 'Do you ever feel like you are making a mistake?' - she said 'Every day, but its a mistake i feel like i need to make. We need to at least be seperated right now'.

Then she said - SHE would be okay with moving into the house I rented, but we would need to straigthen some stuff out before she does. (i am assuming legal protection). Then this morning she asked if I had bought any new furniture before i decided not to move into the house.

anyways. today i have a full day. so i'm off to get that started.