How does that happen that we can not tell our spouses these things freely?

My H is not a talker at all. Sometimes I wonder how we even got together because I am social. Now that things are looking good I want to initaite a R talk but hesitate because I know H will be nervous as I know he is trying to just put it behind him and this is how he'll do it. I can not do that. I need to know at least the rough draft on what went through his head and where he is now so that I can go from here and heal.

Do I make any sense?

JAk

You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez