One day at a time

[sadhearted]

I know no matter what at some point I'll be okay. I do know that. I sure hope this pain lessens over time. I don't want to feel like this for the rest of my life. No where near ready to think I'll do this all over again. I don't want to start over again with someone else.

But listen to me I make it sound like it's a forgone conclusion. I really have no idea how this will end. I need to just stop. Guess it's just all hitting me. This, his grandma, which is the only one in his family who truly excepted me, his job. And him not wanting me to be there for him in it all.

(picturing a big red stop sign)