Yeah I realize it's not an overnight thing. It's been 2 months. And compared to some on here that's nothing. I know I have to have patience. It's just hard when he's pushing me away or being negative.
I'm really trying to break this cycle. I just hope it's not too late. Yes I know he's not talking D or anything. Some days it just feels like he really is done. Even on those days deep down I just don't believe this is what he really wants. Again I could be fooling myself.
It's extremely sad if they can't or won't come back and try again. And right now I'm not far enough along to be able to say if that happens I'm okay with it.
you don't have to be OK with IT. But YOU can be OK. I'm not OK with losing my marriage, my wife, my family, a large chunk of my son's life, etc. But I will be OK. I'll still be sad sometimes, but that will lessen over time. I can still do everything possible for my son, live life to the fullest, and learn, and maybe even love, who knows.
Nothing sucks worse than this, but life sucks sometimes. We either learn from it, or we let it beat us down. Our choice.
We can talk ourselves into defeat or we can talk ourselves into victory - we are creatures of our thinking.
3/31/07 - Hit with a brick, leaving the dent there...
