I was home with the kids when she got home yesterday. I had no idea exactly what time she was landing, so I wasn't able to time out our absence from the home. I was cordial, not at all what she expected, I am sure (she expected a more passive-aggressive reaction, I imagine). Ended up taking the middle kid to the amusement park, then out to dinner. We had a great time, and he thanked me many times.
When we spoke this morning, I subconsciously noticed that I didn't seem to feel the same way about her. Not sure I can put my finger on it, but it seems that her little trip to see her lover has allowed me to build some emotional distance from her. I no longer feel like i need her. It's more like I would like her in my life (assuming she makes some changes), but if she is not, well... I guess I will go on without her. Reserved indifference is a good description.
I realize that this is where the fun starts, because my attitude will be reflected more and more in my daily behavior, and my approach toward her. Next step is continue GAL activities, and see what happens.
Husband - Thanks for the encouragement.
Theoden- The music that I like to listen to always seems to remind me of my wife. So not tunes for me. Maybe I will download some podcasts of radio shows or lectures, etc.... Thanks for the support!
