20 Years Down.....and I'm Confused

[bambam1970]

Hey KaBam!!

Wanna go to Disneyland?

Yea me!!!! I do, I do, I do!!!!!!! I call H Disneyland Dad b/c all he manages to do is fun, fun, fun w/the kids! ick

Thanks for the encouraging words guys. Today I am angry which really pi**es me off!

H worked from 2pm to 8pm yesterday. I called and discussed kids w/him and he had to be at my mom's today at 6:30am (he and some guys are re-siding her barn - in the works for a year and my mom adores H, even tho she wants to kick him in the a@@ right now). He said it was probably a good idea kids just stay w/me. I told him I was probably going to take them to the county fair.

Kay...at 8:08 he called my cell. I was talking to some people, so didn't answer. Called back about 20 minutes later and left msg that we were at fair and kids would call when we left.

At around 9:45 we left and D8 called him and left msg. No big deal, right? WRONG. He left a msg at home machine:

"Hey, it's me. It's a little after 8 and I'm on my way home. Just wanted to call and let you know I was still alive. Seems like maybe you forgot you had a dad. Maybe I'll talk to you tomorrow or maybe not."

WTF????? After hearing this, S11's (twins) kind of rolled their eyes and said "Why does he do that?". But, D8 was upset. She cried herself to sleep and talked about everything BUT her dad being crazy. She never said that had anything to do w/her breakdown. But right before she fell asleep she said "Please don't tell daddy."

I hate him today. I was going to call and leave a msg for him, but didn't. No point. I'm just going to ignore him. I will find ways to protect kids from that sh**. I will turn off answering machine so he cannot leave msgs.

He isn't mean. Just having a pity party for himself and, quite frankly, I'm sick of it.

Just venting. I saw a lot of people last night and it was fun. For the first time in my life, people talk to ME. It has always been about us or "Your H is so crazy" blah, blah, blah. Last night it was just me. I had lots of compliments about how good I looked. It was fun.

So, hope everyone is doing well.