I was out with friends, and I don't know what overcame me, but I text H and said, "Too bad you gave up, we had a beautiful family and it could have been saved." I know he wouldn't really care about this and honestly when I woke up the next morning, I regretted it. I just felt like, great, he was going to think that I still want him and in reality I don't. I just don't want him with her. Anyway, he text me back and said, Pleas keep it to the kids, I am happy now and this can affect my relationship. AAGH, I wish I could have reached in the phone and slapped him. Excuse me...."my relationship" did you forget that we are still married and that "your relationship" was and still is an affair. He is so dumb. So, I text him back and said, "That I know how it sounds, and I didn't mean it that way, I have no regrets, get over yourself and your relationship." That was that. Then, I saw him at my MIL, when I went to pick up the babies(the next day). I showed up early, so I ended being there at the same time as him, and of course as usual, he always checks me out when I am around. He's disgusting. However, I did keep it as civil as possible and asked if he was going to see the Dr. about his sore neck and back (he was in a minor fender bender), he said yea, and I told him that this was a good idea. All was decent until yesterday when I went to pick up the kids, he had some of my items there waiting for me. I always get a little sad when this happens. I guess it puts things into reality again. Oh yeah, I also had a breakdown on Sunday. I cried so hard for the first time in weeks (this is good) and just kept asking myself and God "why?" I guess it didn't help that I was looking at pictures of the babes from when they were first born. So.....that is my book for the night. Thanks for reading and always supporting!
