She actually said she hated me for the first time. We have a thing about how hate is such a stong word. She intentionally used it.
JR I have learned a lot. I know what went wrong (at least most) from my side. And that's what makes this so hard. I have put my blood, sweat, and tears into this. I have never worked harder on anything in my life. And now I feel like it was all in vain. Why? Because I have become and better person and a better husband...but there is nobody there to see it or even care. It has not made me any happier. It has frankly made me ashamed of who I was. But it's too little too late. And that I can't forgive myself for.
H-36 W-38 Married 14yrs Together 17 2 Children (D12, S15) 9/20/05 - Seperated 4/23/07 - Dbomb dropped 4/25/07 - I Love you, not in love "If it's not hard, it's not worth fighting for."
