I'm sorry your telling your two best friends about the sitch (Not that you wanted to 'tell on' W, but for your own emotional support, o/c) had such ugly repercussions. But plese see Sandi2's post on NDDT's thread that I 'stole' earlier. It surely fits your sitch - esp this latest bit - as well.
You DO sound tired, D. And you know you are. The questioning whether it's worth it, questioning whether to hang on, contemplating an ow for yourself. . .Certainly, questioning is fine - wonderful, in fact - but please wait until you are not so emotionally exhausted (and physically? How's your sleep?) to make any decisions. YOu have invested alot of time, effort & energy into your sitch. It's draining, and you may have reached rock bottom. But you may just need a rest.
Rest. And I'll check in later. j
Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.
Me: 45 - WAH: 36 S8; D6 M: 11 yrs 07/06 Initial Bomb 10/06; D Bomb 11/06 - DBing begun 1/5/07 - H moved out 03/16/07 To date: No papers filed; H not seen a L; trying to convince me to MUTUALLY file for D