Ok. So I keep reading the book and keep thinking, "If only we found this a year ago!". I want her to know that there is hope for us. I want her to know that we don't have to live like that anymore and neither do we have to be apart to be happy. I don't think she is at all ready to hear this now. Could be a while. I haven't spoken to her in three days, and I am trying to stay distanced. Good, I think. I miss my W though ad each day is as grueling as the days before. I feel no better, just smarter and more capable of working through this. I'm also thinking Retrovaille would do us a lot of good. This one I absolutely agree with. When the time is right I think it would be a very good idea. How can I share these things without calling her or pushing the issue? Right now I don't think you can, so don't. Patience. How can she see the changes I have made when she is not here? By the fact that you are not chasing, and by how you act when you next hear from her. She's most likely going to be blaming you, if you get defensive, you'll set yourself way back.
