I made a big mistake last week while dropping off my wifes belongings at her work I spotted the guy that shes been seeing. He was bringing her lunch. So I got access to the building went into the lunchroom where they were alone eating and I asked that he respect that fact that she is still married. He responded by saying that she wasn't in love with anymore and then he stood up. I thought i saw him make a move towards me so I let him have it. We wrestled for a minute before I finally let him go. Well i got served with three restraining orders from the incident. Her, Him and some guy who was yelling for us to stop fighting. She lied and said she believed I had a drinking problem and that I drink everyday. I have a beer about once every month to two months. Why would she lie about that. And how would she even know if we'd be separated for five months and haven't spoken. I know I was wrong but I couldn't help wanting to catch them together. Anyway I think before this she agreed that she needed to break it off with him but now i think I have pushed her closer to him.
I picked up the papers to file for divorce, but everyone has told me I should wait until she contacts me in this regard. She has made him her husband through all of this. She's very protective of him more so than I ever remember her being towards me. Yet I still miss her and think if we got away from here we might be able to work all of this out even though i know we shouldn't. We have no kids together and this could be a clean break. So why can't I break?
