Ok. So I keep reading the book and keep thinking, "If only we found this a year ago!". I want her to know that there is hope for us. I want her to know that we don't have to live like that anymore and neither do we have to be apart to be happy. I haven't spoken to her in three days, and I am trying to stay distanced. I miss my W though ad each day is as grueling as the days before. I feel no better, just smarter and more capable of working through this. I'm also thinking Retrovaille would do us a lot of good. How can I share these things without calling her or pushing the issue? How can she see the changes I have made when she is not here?
