Really down today. Crap day at work and comments like 'You are not doing yourself any favours' by a colleague does not help your esteem at all and this one knows about my situation.
Don't really have anyone to talk to about my situation at the moment (apart from here), so trying to keep myself going. Find it hard around the children and was in tears today.
Tonight, when the W comes home from work, I will need to put on a completely different persona; do they even care what they do to us.
My greatest fear is I will expend all my energy on trying to make this right and she will still walk. At the moment, I take the children to school, pick them up, feed them and run them to evening clubs. Sometimes, I want some time for myself, but when is that! Last night, she came home after visiting a friend, ate dinner, went out to another friends and come home half-drunk. This monring she had the audacity to state that I kept her awake at night and she was pressured!!!!!
Writing about it, while hard, does help and reading the books also does. As far a she is concerned at the moment, the books are crap, I am crap and the OP is a shining knight. What will she do if I suddenly state that I am walking - who will look after the children - the OP (I think not!).
Any case, chips are probably burning, so I will probably vent more later.
