Why else would she go through a divorce if it won't make her happy? She won't share with me why she's doing it, so I have to assume it'll make her feel better, right? I haven't cheated on her, I've never beat her up. I made some mistakes, some pretty big with regards to how I treated her, but nothing that deserves divorce. So, she MUST have a sense of happiness doing this, why else would she do it?
I'm not giving up, believe me, it's not like that. I'm just in my reality, and that is divorce. Since I can't control the situation, I can only control me, I'm going to stay positive about myself, do whatever I can to keep S4 protected from this mess, and get through this the best I can.
I have put this all in God's hands, and if he wants to keep my family together, we'll get a miracle. But even God can't FORCE my wife to stay in a marriage where she's so unhappy. He can't force her to work on it, and he can't make her be attracted to me again, so I continue to do what I can for me and S4 and get myself right with Him, and hope my wife is doing the same.
We can talk ourselves into defeat or we can talk ourselves into victory - we are creatures of our thinking.
3/31/07 - Hit with a brick, leaving the dent there...
