its official, I suck. you both were right, I shouldn't have done this. I shouldn't. just got his response:
"Yes of course. Anything in mind? Just keep in mind that I have my national meeting the whole week of September 24th."
now, obviously that's a really nice e-mail, but it just sucks, because obviously I really did want him to want something more than he does. we are in such different places...I say that over and over, I know it, but still, it hurts. I hate that he is so accomodating...he sooo wants me to have my own life, to move on, even to find someone else. even though he has said he isn't ready for us to be over, he wants us to be, so he can merrily and guilt free move on with his.
sniff. no time to sit and bawl about it, gotta run to swim lessons.
and ugh, the freaking meeting he talks about is in san diego...with the OW. ugh ugh ugh. shoot me now.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
