What if you get disgusted? Then what?

[mkultra]

I love your attitude. Isn't funny that we are seeing sides of them that would never have attracted us to them? Do they feel safe to show their dark sides because they have seen our unconditional love?

I have been thinking about the natural evolution of this separation. I remember how my H had no sympathy when I became depressed. He said, "You are where I was three months ago." He is always a step ahead of me. Now he stares at me and I can barely make eye contact with him. This is a real reversal. I am really seeing what a stranger he is in front of our friends and family. Yes, detaching is much easier. Did he plan that too?

My H's weight loss is considered underweight on the body mass index. He no longer fits into men's size extra small. He continues to run with his shirt off. I admit I am embarrassed when he lays out while the kids are at swim camp. No other parent does this and definitley not any fathers. Most people do not mention his weight loss for fear that he is ill and they do not want to offend. Many of my coworkers tell me their horror stories of leukemia and Grave's Disease and meth. What can I say?