He's still with her, and I'm moving on (part 2)...

[Hope_11]

Well, you are never going to believe this, but I received the updated D papers in the mail today. My H was actually telling the truth yesterday when he said he mailed them...amazing. This is so bittersweet for me. He got the papers fixed to say what we agreed upon in November, two days after he disclosed his affair to me. I am getting more than my fair share, so I should feel happy, but I never wanted this marriage to end. All I wanted was a fair chance at reconciliation with my H and I was never given that chance. Therefore, I'm sitting here alone 8 months later with tears running down my face with D papers knowing that I have to sign them. I always said that God would take care me and guide me on what I need to do. At this point, it seems like I will have a better life without my H. He is broken and he hasn't even started to try and fix himself. I never gave up on him, he gave up on himself. This is so hard, but I know the time has come to say goodbye to my H and to my marriage. Even though I am going to break down and sign these papers, I won't ever have to say that I didn't give it my all. I tried and tried and tried. I held on for 8 long, hellish months and gave him multiple chances to make things right with me. He just doesn't have it in him. He isn't even half the man that I thought he was.

I have a consultation set up with an attorney on Monday to discuss D proceedings, so I am going to try and switch that to a meeting for him to look over the papers and make sure they say what I think that they should say. There are a few things that H didn't list out and want to make sure that is okay. Two of the items are his and only one is mine, so I think that I should be fine. The house and my 401(k) were my big concerns and they appear to be correct.

Any thoughts?