The fat lady is warming up.... 2

[alamogirl]

Hey OldFool,

Well, I survived yesterday...16 Jul...my would-have-been 13th wedding anniversary. I started thinking about it on Sunday, and then I couldn't go to sleep. I don't know if it was because of the upcoming "day" or because my dumb boxer got out, and I couldn't find her. Yesterday, I kept very busy at work so I wouldn't have to think. I went to my Weight Watchers meeting later that evening, and toward the end of the meeting, my phone rang. It was the H. I told him that I would call him back. After the meeting, I called him back, and we made small talk. He didn't mention the anniversary date and neither did I. He asked me if I had signed the D papers, and I told him 'no.' Then he asked if I was thinking of renegotiating, and I said 'no, I wanted all this to be over.'

He also asked for items we purchased together...things that I really don't care for, such as the 40" widescreen TV. Other items he requested was our sleep-number bed. I've always hated that bed, but if he wants it, he can have it.

Anyway, H told me that he's living in his car with his son. For a short while, I felt really bad, and then I shook it off. After I finished talking to him, I lost my appetite. It was a pretty lousy day for me but I rose above it. He said that he may move to Dallas. His step-son (son's 1/2 brother) lives over there. Do you want to hear something funny? During the course of our marriage, H often told me that his stepson always said that he would like for the three of them (H, son, and stepson) to live together. He was very disappointed when we got married. Looks like he's going to get his wish. If I didn't know better, I'd say that someone put a hex on us.

I guess I need to talk to my lawyer about the 13K. I don't need the daggum IRS after me. I forgot to ask H what he thought about it. He didn't mention anything.

I still get these crazy thoughts that maybe someday, we can get back together. Am I freakin nuts?

All in all, life is good as crazy as it may sound. I listen to my friend who has problems with her drug-addicted son and my other friend who tends to her Mom who has Alzheimers. Then I think to myself that I don't have it that bad and thank G-d for that. Dealing with a troubled child or elderly parents is a heck of a lot worse than dealing with a WAH.

Well, I am wishing good things for your future and hope all is going well in your life.

All my best,
alamogirl