Do I buy a house? What about sex?

[Trixi]

My step son (his son who I helped raise, and was a major reason for H deciding to marry me) just called me from across the country. He will be coming out here for 2 weeks an about a week and half. He wanted to make sure that we got together when he is here. He was very supportive and said he hoped his dad would change his mind and come to his senses. More stuff like that. That I will always be a second mom to him. That my daughter will always be his sister. It was very nice.

I think *that* sort of thing is what I had been hoping my MIL would say.

It is very hard to think about not spending holidays with the extended family, etc. At least I can look in the mirror and know that even though I made some mistakes, I have learned and am geniunely sorry. Nothing else I can do. I have apologized to those I feel I need to apologize to.

Since today is his bday and he and his parents are out celebrating, I decided to go and rent a movie and get some Thai take out. I also purchased some moving boxes and packing tape. I think that best gift I can give to him today is the freedom to find out what he really wants. I actually (this second at least) feel okay about it. What Oldtimer said really hit home: "You aren't really holding on to anything. He is already gone." For this brief period of time, I think I am getting to feel the blessings of detachment.