Update... I wish I could say that I am doing well with this, but I cannot. My anxiety level is off the chart. I went out and ran an additional 2 miles and did more push-ups than I can count, all to no avail. Knowing that she didn't shower before she left (presumably so she can share the event in a hotel room with him) is really more than I can handle. I try to tell myself she is mentally unbalanced and acting like a 14 year old. It does not help.
We will not be going to the amusement park tomorrow. She took the kids' season passes with her. Need to find something else to do. I will find a movie or something.
Also, regarding when she calls tonite: I have decided to really throw her for a loop. See, I had this vision: I imagined her calling here and encountering a surly and grumpy husband. At the end of the call, she would no doubt hang-up and tell her lover, "Boy, is he pissed!!" And he would respond, "Good!" (remember, I am a lousy husband and she should divorce me ASAP). OK, imagine this. Instead of me being surly and grumpy, I am cheerful and upbeat. What in the world would she say to him then? She will be really thrown off. I am chuckling to myself thinking about it... I will tell her that we are all having a great time. She will be the one missing out! This is textbook DBing strategy, and I will put it into place. I will do the opposite of what comes naturally.
Thanks for reading my "daily journal." And thanks for your support.
