I think yesterday was a "I'm so sick and tired of waiting" day. For me, it was one of those days where you get sick and tired of dealing with what you accept day in and out. You want to scream, shake up the house and clean it from top to bottom. I was so close to just spouting off at W and saying, let's quit piddling around and get down to business. But common sense prevailed and the evening went as well as possible.
In answer to you question, W never can see why she "has to put up with so much". Why can't she just have things the way she wants things? Why does her life have to be so tough? I'm not saying that she doesn't have her challenges, but some, as you can imagine are brought on by her own actions. She kind of is thinking perhaps it's time to "dump off" some of the problems and just try to get a fresh start (with a new set of problems).
Back when we were attending C, she would just get exasperated with what the C were saying and how things were progressing in our sessions. The C would call things as they would see it, which was not what W wanted to hear. She wanted to hear, "it's done, pack it in". W really kind of knew what her issues were, but there just wasn't the clean way out she was hoping for.
Anyhow, I can see a spiral in my mood due to this, so I will go back to as if. I will take the positive I see and play with that. If things go south, then I'll play that when it occurs. Kind of had higher views/expectations of how this would all go, but it is what it is.
