NikkiB #18

[NikB]

Ok... beginning to try and formulate a plan here. Thoughts???

- Schedule the MC (hopefully she'll call me back today, I left her a message)

- Ask H to set up and move into a spare bedroom/area in the house

- Tell H that I am not working on the M right now, and want to be "friends only" unless/until we're both ready and willing to fully recommit (is this an OK way to say this?)

- Keep going with the other "back to basics" that I was working on... GAL, focus on me, etc.

I feel like I should be looking into an apartment or something but I'm kind of stuck legally/financially. I can't afford to both rent and continue to make part of the house payment. H hasn't come out and said it but has hinted that things could get very ugly with the house in the event I stopped making payments and we did end up on the road to D. We're a community property state and the house value has gone up a lot. For whatever reason lately he seems to consider the house more "his" and is not pleased at all that I'd be entitled to half the equity. But if I stop making payments, I could be risking my rights to that.