Saf,

I ask my myself that now more and more and I am starting to think maybe I dont want this M anymore until like sunday when D7 starts to cry herself to sleep wanting H back, "I want my daddy".

I am glad I am past the point of "trying to compete w/ OW". I feel like telling H that this is not a competion (this he would get off on in the beginning) & that he is not a prize!