Hey guys I thank you all for checking in on me. I guess I was doing a little bit of detaching all around including this site.
I did end up taking D10 to Orlando w/ me. My grandfather ended up at the ER that Friday so I stayed until the next day & then my mother wanted me to wait until they discharged him to go w/ us. He had a minor cerebral hemorrahage,but is ok now thank God.
As I was looking back on my last horrible email that I printed out due to H's threats I noticed that from the start I had backed off and succumed to his wishes to stay w/ all three girls. This even though it really was not his weekend. i am tired of succuming to him all the time. H thinks he can threaten me and I will back down everytime. This is why on that day I have signed off the IM to avoid anymore conflict.
On Sunday when h called (late at that) when he was suppose tot return the girls he said they did not want to coem home??? Odd! Asked if they can stay one more night and he will bring them in the morning. At first I said ok,but then I I said no. H- but they dont want to. I said it not up to them. You know when the r do back and thats final. Before he left I told in a calm manner that from now on if he had plans or an event to of to(like the Daytona race) on his scheduled weekend to either cancel his plans & prioritze his only time /w the girls or get a sitter. This was my weekend & my family who was in from out of the country wanted to see the girls. H- really then we will see about that in court. I said ok. He was his usaul mean self and before he left I said if you wanted to be w/ the girls full time you should of thought of that before you ruined their life.
Look, I know this is NOT db'n, but I am not Db'ng anymore. I am moving on. Too exhausted to be living the rest of my life in this drama. I love living by myself w/ out having to worry about walking on egg shells anymore. H needs to know I am no longer the submissive ,walk all over me wife anymore.
In the morning I noticed he had puit the house for sale sign (again)up in the yard. I took it off. Either way he can not sell w/ out my signature. I had told him this. H wants to sell BEFORE the D is even filed! I told him why he doesn't ask his woman (who pays for evrything trips around the wordl) to gelp him w/ the past due morgagte.H said she offered but he will not take it. I guess he will really owe her matrimony if he accepts!! he he....Says thats its why he needs to sell before it forelcoses.
I have not opened my IM at all this week. I am not up to anymore of his crap. Going dark and detaching all the way.
He is coming to see the girls today & I pray nothing becomes of it. I will put on the armour of GOD and talk only when he speaks to me.
