CVA - Thread 2, Hold mode

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Journaling 7.16.07

Got to Canada at 2 am, up early, have to do it all week. Very tired.

Did not talk to W all day. She called at 8 pm as she was getting kids ready for bed so I could talk to them. She went out last night and sounded very tired.

I DID NOT ASK ABOUT HER NIGHT OUT! Thanks Nomo.

Very brief conversation w/ W when she was on the phone, when she is tired it is obvious. Told her I just "got back" and I think she misinterpreted that I was back in town and asked what that meant, just back in Hotel room, jeeeez. Conversation was polite if nothing else and she did ask at one pt how it went today after I told her I got here very late and had a long day.

Talked to the kids except youngest who was tired from camp today.
Oldest son called me back to read the bible w/ me. When we read together, he picks a word from the Bible and it has versus to go with that word. He picked "depression"! I asked him why, he would not elaborate but when pressed he admitted he is worried about me. I told him I was OK and not to worry. So he picks "caring" and we read the versus. Then he says, "Dad, how about tomorrow I read "verse on relationships and how men should love their wife like Christ loved the Church...." Hmmm, he is 9 but apparently a lot brighter than me. He is very worried about my W and I and us getting divorced. I tried to tell him that I love his mom that way and I hadnt done the best job showing her...."I know Dad, but you are now!"

OK, break out the tissues, that was tear jerker.

So, in a better state than this morning, may have to be out ALL week ending on the west coast and seriously considering taking an extra day for myself out in CA this weekend. As much as I miss my kids, I need a mental health day. Maybe I will come home and then go out for a couple of days next week so I can see the kids and disappear for a few days on my own. Cabo? Very fond memories of Cabo but afraid that I will be flooded with those as they were on a vacation w/ W that was really nice.

That's it for now, have to get to bed.