Nothin' like spending 3 days with WAS to detach!

[Dr.mom]

I am not numb. I feel kinda free and empowered. Let's hope I can ride this feeling out as long as I can.

Lot of good work done and great things said (by me) on this weekend. It was kind of like having one of those great, fictitious conversations in your head. You know, the one where you get to say everything to them you ever wanted to say, and you say it eloquently. And you are pretty sure they HEARD it all.

I figured, if I never saw or spoke to him again, I got it all out. Kinda realized, even though the demise of our marriage fell on both our heads, the majority of the healing will fall on his.

I realized this weekend I have made great changes in myself. I like my morals, my character, and what I stand for. I like the fact that I found my spirituality again, and that gives me great strength. He sees the changes. He saw them big-time this weekend. I trumped him at every turn. Rise above it all.

I think he realized he is still pretty messed up, and has a long way to. I will be there for him, side by side all the way, if he wants it. I think he knows that by now. But the first step is his.

Time to stop wasting time on this relationship. I have done WHAT I can, and all that I can. Satisfied. Time to start spending all that energy on things that will make my life a better place.

Giddy-up.