Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
Of course, I also understand that you're not sure you still want the M. Is there anything about her right now that you can genuinely respect admire and use this molecule of connection to draw her back in?
That's a great question, Lillie, and I have to admit that it's getting harder and harder every day to see anything. I'm rapidly losing what's left of my love for her. If something doesn't break soon, it may be too late.
Choc.
Man Choc, Skimming throught the posts I wonder if were not married to the same alien. The timeline, the responses, the texting, it all could be quoted out of my life lately.
About the not having anything left soon. I know how you feel, I caught myself seeing little glimmers of change and would get my hopes up, only to have them crushed and ripped out of me.
I tried to picture a small part of my heart that still loves her,(the real her, the one that I know is still in there somewhere) and locked it away. I took it and walled it off in a steel room that even I can't get to right now. That way when this does turn around (I believe it will) there will be something that she will be able to work with to try and make us whole again.
M 39, W 35 D7, S5 Friends 18+ Together 11+ Married 8 ILYBINILWY 4/7/07 - A BOMB 4/29/07 Seperated 5/16/07 - D Filed She Moved out 7/1 D Busted 6/15/08
I'm still thinking about you Choc! Wondering how you are doing and what's happening. Hope things are going well.
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
Choc is incredibly busy with his situation. He will post an update as soon as some dust settles.
He is doing well.
-NOPkins-
I will ferret out an affair at any opportunity.
-An affair is the embodiment of entitlement, fueled by resentment and lack of respect. -An infidel will remain unreachable so long as their sense of entitlement exceeds their ability to reason.
M - 57 H - 65 1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02 2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06 together 21 years *************************** Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)
I've been wondering too. Like I tried to explain in my post, I have some inkling about what his W is feeling and I know that his dealing with it won't be easy.
Choc, prayers are being sent your way on a daily basis. Manly hugs...
