is sideways a direction?

[cire2]

Guess I haven't been to my thread in a few days. Spent some phone time with a couple others having tough times.

Went to church yesterday for some peace of mind and it helped. There has been no contact in months but I do talk with her best friend every week or so, we work together. Don't know what gets back to her but I would be suprised if there's nothing. Talk is always of work even though she asks how i'm doing.

Even though we are D now I still have a feeling of hope I can't explain. Last night added some more thoughts about all this.

I was out with a friend for some food and beers, had a good time and talked about a lot of our lives since high school. After my buddy left I stayed talking with the manager since I haven't seen her in months. Started with her bringing up a past R she was in and telling me about it, out of the blue.

Then while I was in the bathroom losing some beer a young guy starts asking me what he should do about some things in his life. Like i'm some kind of counselor, never seen this guy before. So while i'm talking with him and his friend, trying to give him some advice, someone comes up and taps me on the shoulder. OMG, it's the ex's oldest son who hates me and we've had our fights. I even had him arrested in the past.

He was nice and friendly which was cool but my Gosh there is no way in he** that should have happended. Weird things and weird feelings have been happening...DUNNO now i'm confused.

Thought I would share that and if anyone wants to lend some insight it would help.

cire