You're stuck here in this limbo where your beliefs of what is fair, just and the way things should be and the reality of the situation are far apart from each other.
If you believe that someone doesn't truely love you if they don't blow you while you drive down the highway then they don't love you, by your criteria.
The criteria that you set is yours and you own it, I'm not going to try to convince you that it's wrong.
By your own criteria you have settled for less than what you want and continue to do so everyday that you breathe.
