I've returned from saying goodbye to my dad for the last time. Mentally I am destroyed. My W is still sending crossed signals...she hugged me when she dropped me off at the airport. But left my car in airport parking for the return trip and then lied to me about why she wasn't picking me up.
I really don't know how much more I can take. In between my sitch, my son having some major mental issues that may require in patient treatment, and my father who will no longer be here within the next month.
Dad told me the one thing to do for him is to "live better and take better care of myself than I have..." Of course he doesn't like my W at all or the sitch.
Now to try and make it through work today without melting down. But I'm here.
H-36 W-38 Married 14yrs Together 17 2 Children (D12, S15) 9/20/05 - Seperated 4/23/07 - Dbomb dropped 4/25/07 - I Love you, not in love "If it's not hard, it's not worth fighting for."
So welcome back to me...I got an email from W today telling me that she realized a lot of things while I was gone, and that she's moving on with her life and my lawyer should have the papers by the end of the week.
H-36 W-38 Married 14yrs Together 17 2 Children (D12, S15) 9/20/05 - Seperated 4/23/07 - Dbomb dropped 4/25/07 - I Love you, not in love "If it's not hard, it's not worth fighting for."
Nothing to check back on man. What more could possibly go wrong in my life at this point.
H-36 W-38 Married 14yrs Together 17 2 Children (D12, S15) 9/20/05 - Seperated 4/23/07 - Dbomb dropped 4/25/07 - I Love you, not in love "If it's not hard, it's not worth fighting for."
I'm seriously thinking about trying to find some sort of inpatient facility for myself. If it wasn't for my kids I would probably already be there.
H-36 W-38 Married 14yrs Together 17 2 Children (D12, S15) 9/20/05 - Seperated 4/23/07 - Dbomb dropped 4/25/07 - I Love you, not in love "If it's not hard, it's not worth fighting for."
It sounds like every one leans on you. As if you are the turn to guy. You must have a lot of reserves of strength in you. Mixed signals are confusing to act on. Perhaps she is just as confused as you?
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
I was in counseling, but financially it's a strain, plus I've been out of state attending to my dying father.
H-36 W-38 Married 14yrs Together 17 2 Children (D12, S15) 9/20/05 - Seperated 4/23/07 - Dbomb dropped 4/25/07 - I Love you, not in love "If it's not hard, it's not worth fighting for."
NM you need to focus on you and your father right now.
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Dad told me the one thing to do for him is to "live better and take better care of myself than I have..." Of course he doesn't like my W at all or the sitch.
Make him happy by making yourself happy. She should take a back burner right now -- so you live, enjoy life and enjoy talking to your dad while you have him here. These life altering events put things in perspective. Life is short and you deserve to be happy too.
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
