You are not a pushover - you are on a rollercoaster of a ride.
You say you went through this exact some scenario with her when you were engaged so hold on to that thought. Give her time. Patience is a must in these situations.
Saffie
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength