Nothing really new in my sitch...really..except for the fact that I seem or "we" seem to be be transgressing into our old roles. The only difference is now I see the symptoms while before I glanced and moved forward anyway. Sometimes I seem to be battling myself more than my W...which actually I think is my problem entirely anyway. So much in this whole ordeal really centers around being content with ones self, ones direction. At this moment I really dont have either because I get muddled within the fact of trying to make everyone happy first and then what remainder is left I give to myself. I always fight within myself at the notion that just because you center on yourself first doesnt necessarily mean that you are self centered. I guess I just overthink myself into a corner more than often. So, Just working through the crap. I really think it is sometimes easier when you are still alone then when you have your spouse back. Adding another ingredient doesnt always make the concoction easier to stomach... I guess this post is mainly journaling for journaling sake...peace...
