Tiny Ray of whatever...

[NMHurting]

I've returned from saying goodbye to my dad for the last time. Mentally I am destroyed. My W is still sending crossed signals...she hugged me when she dropped me off at the airport. But left my car in airport parking for the return trip and then lied to me about why she wasn't picking me up.

I really don't know how much more I can take. In between my sitch, my son having some major mental issues that may require in patient treatment, and my father who will no longer be here within the next month.

Dad told me the one thing to do for him is to "live better and take better care of myself than I have..." Of course he doesn't like my W at all or the sitch.

Now to try and make it through work today without melting down. But I'm here.