I love the disclaimer. I think your right, I need to let her live her choice. She may file soon, she may not. I don't have control over that. If I follow through with backing up and she files, I have a head start to my resolve. If she doesn't file, she will live life in the fast lane and have her cake, but eventually she is going to feel the regret that sounds like it is already there.
On a good note, she initiated the hug tonight. For the first time in a long time she really grabbed me and came in. God I want to help her, I want her to be happy, just worried I'm going to get flogged any day now.
So I keep expressing my problems here, keep it cool with her and pull back.
