GD and NDDT, thank you for posting. I have gotten caught up on anyone lately, my mind is a wreck and I've been doing a lot of thinking. Honestly don't know if I want this.
The today basics: Came back did laundry. W pulled the I'm filling this week bit. W started taking cheap shots, telling the dog goodbye, I'll miss this...that... W needs a new phone, bought her one and we all had dinner. Back at house she pulls the "I'm filing this week."
Caller her bluff out of anger. Said I wasn't sure I wanted to be married to her anymore, and that if she is going to file then do and get it over with. W started crying, "You don't want me anymore?" Told her I couldn't answer that right now.
W asks for 10 month seperation, no filing. Rest of night is great.
End of night she says I should date because she is. All I said is that I'm married and I plan on keeping my commitment, she could do as she wanted. W said, "What about consequences?" "All choices have them."
I need to back away for a while or I'm going to file. That is my big decision, I refuse to file, this is her D. But if I keep hearing this crap, I'm going to file and unleash the dogs. I'm really angry now, not so much sad, but just angry. One of my issues.
Well I'm not going to act on anything and I'm really gaining control over it, I have to with her. But I am thinking of GAL hard, no time to talk got to run, quick drops and pick ups. Not to worried about a response, since I already tried to pull the trigger today and nothing fired. So I figure I'm going to peak her interest and see what happens.
By the way, what is the deal with going to the bar that she NEVER liked, is the one all my friends go to, and one bartends at. All I can think of is she is trying to get me pissed. Can't react to it. But why? I think she is so upset she is trying to intentionally hurt me. She really has hit bottom with me, so keep trying.
