Knowing details does not help me. It only makes me feel worse and more angry and depressed at the same time. I think at this point he would do anything to mend it and have some normalcy in his life. HE keeps asking me what he can do to help me and I just say "nothing". I can't think of anything that he could possibly do to help me feel better. In some ways I think it would have been easier if he had left with her because the decision would be out of my hands and I would have to go on with my life, but as it is I am the one who has to make the choice. Your're right Grace, this sux. Next week our new grandbaby will be baptized and we will be there and it is just so hard to go through this. Thanks for helping me to think a little instead of just reacting to my emotions. I feel like a mean 10 yr. old.
