Yesterday was a good day and we went shopping for b'day presents for our DIL and it was also my H. B'day (today). He wouldn't buy himself anything( I told him to pick himself something because I didn't know what to get) . He said he would rather buy something for me. I didn't want anything. We babysat the grandkids last night and the stress of the day today got to be too much for me to handle. I kicked him out again. I don't know if this is the 3rd Sunday in a row but I know it is 2 Sundays. Sunday was always family day with me fixing a big dinner and everyonw sitting around and talking or playing outside. I know everyone wants them to come to their senses but when they do there is sooooo much to deal with. He broke it off and hasn't talked to her since but I wish he had told her that it meant nothing and he was out of his mind and on and on. They played this out and didn't care who they hurt and now I am just supposed to sit back and deal with it.There is no closure for me. Only him looking pathetic and saying how sorry he is and me wanting to bite nails and and spit them in his direction. I know my family could sense the tension and I feel bad because I have a difficult time hiding my feelings although I try to act as if everything is ok. Well, another Sunday shot to hell. I know I feel better if I try to forget about it and talk to him, but I don't want to make things too eassy for him either and I am angry. This morning I asked some deatils about the A. and he was honest and it set the mood for the whole day. I don't know if it is good to know details because they are in your mind forever. Thanks for listening, Violets
